; Megnificent ♥

I know you read this, and you’ll prolly see this, but I can’t bring myself to talk to you right now. Blogs are useful aren’t they?

Don’t turn around and get all pissy at me okay, cos just half a year ago you were saying the complete opposite of what you are now. You said screw this shit and go, stuff it all of you you piss me off. Why be affected and not do what your actually do what you are supposed to, when you can be comfortable and do what your really meant to be doing? And I agree, completely.

But now you come and turn the  tables on me and its freaking hard already without you coming and making things worse. I thought you would be some kind of voice of reason but you just make this so much more complicated than it already is. Your becoming one of the people you told me to say “get lost” to. I don’t understand; okay maybe your coming back, that is good, really it is, and I am happy for you, but now you become one of them? The ones “spreading the filth around” as you put it. But I don’t even know what to think anymore, I’ve tried cutting myself off but obviously I came back.

Talk about role reversal, who’s the one who’s gone 180 on me.
Don’t go on like I’m the only one, what about the others? The ones your supposed to be close to, don’t really think much about them do you? Why? Cos I’m the only one stupid enough to come back and care, and when I do I get whacked for how little I do that. But did you notice that I even came in the first place? If everyone’s so worried, go figure out the rest before you come worrying about little ol’ me, the only one who’s been around long enough to get pissed off.

Angst over, well maybe not really, I don’t know, I don’t really stay mad at you for long. But, I don’t know. I really don’t, and it sucks not knowing. Don’t be any more pissed at me, please. I don’t think I can take anymore.

Its like the world’s moving on without me. Screw this.