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Inspired. Read.
Today was a moderately bad day. I was okay surface-wise but its been a sad day. Leaving the holidays behind is always a gross feeling. Especially now, when the first day of school spells E-X-A-M-S, and my holidays have been absolutely kickass. I want my holidays back, I was so happy then. School makes me Sad.
Life sucks sometimes, I feel so aimless and unmotivated, like what the hell am I doing? Tired too. Rambling I am, Goodnight.
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well it’s good to drift once in a while
just remember to come back
I truthfully don’t know what the heck I’m doing, but I think I’m headed back, slowly. Do I want to? God knows its awkward, the fake smiles, the tense silences, the unspoken words just hanging in the air, so obvious they could be in speech bubbles. Why hasn’t anything changed?
I guess I know why, the answer’s nagging at the back of my head. “Cos you didn’t do anything, Megan. You could have, but when it came down to it you just ran.” So I’m a runner, I’ve always been, and now that Someone’s coming to me with the same problem I had, I realize I can’t advise him or guide him which is what I really need and want to do. ‘Cos when it came time for me to decide, I ran. Don’t do what I did, you deserve and need more than that, go where your heart feels right, not where your head thinks you should.
So, go back? Doesn’t look that good anymore. Take your own advice Meg, you hypocrite, you coward.
Good and Bad always balances out though. Thank you God for that. When things on one side of the scale go down, the other side goes up. And in this case, way up.
Everything last year was, has been swept under the carpet. I don’t know how, but hey, I’m not complaining here. I see traces now and then, but we’re both working towards something better, aren’t we? I’m glad. I guess time does make things better. New is good, new is different, I think I like this new, different thing, it feels right.
Take me somewhere I feel safe, secure, somewhere that doesn’t have so many layers, somewhere where things are just what they are, what they appear to be, somewhere that doesn’t have so much politics and doesn’t make things so complicated.
Take me to a Disney movie or something, things are good in Disney movies, there are happy endings. There’s a problem but it always gets fixed.
Take me there, someone? Anyone?
