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I haven’t been here in a while. I usually come here when I feel less superficial, when I actually have stuff to think about, that I need to think about, that I can’t find an outlet for. Now’s a time.
It’s ironic though, I’ve been feeling a little happier lately. School’s been fun, on the fun part; the work part, not so good, but I’m dealing with that, kind of :B It doesn’t take much to make me smile now, it’s fun to be this kind of person again, makes life seem so much simpler and happy.
But. Drifting. That’s what I’ve been doing lately. Sucks really, not being around people that I used to be close to, used to mean more to me. Half of me is sad that I’ve drifted, but the other half is being stubborn, not wanting to do anything about it, cos I don’t think it’s entirely my fault. And now, I really don’t know which side to slap and shut up, which side to listen to. Life is weird that way.
I’ve always believed in “Absense makes the heart grow fonder” (As well as vice versa. But that’s another (long)story.) But it hasn’t really kicked in yet. I’m feeling pangs that hurt when I realize that things are going on, moving on without me, I feel sad when I see people getting on fine without me there.
But there it is again, Change, my old friend. And I think I’ve learnt to deal with it, really.
I hear someone in the back of my head going, “Deal with it Meg, that’s life, it going to be like that whether you like it or not.” That makes me sad too, cos it’s been forever since I’ve heard something like that from someone like that.
Well I am dealing with it. Tuck it away in some corner, to block out or to keep and cherish, whatever, but get on with life.
On another note, I am glad I have superficial things to make me happy. Yes, back to my happy, simple life blog now.
